Maybe..I Don’t Wanna Get Better
Self Harm 30 Day Challenge
I made this at once because I’m a little bored and I want to write something.. and like other things, I can forget it.
Day 1: How long have you been self harming?
almost 5 years.
Day 2: What part of your body is most affected by it?
my right wrist, my hip and my legs
Day 3: What is your motivation to recover?
now, My boyfriend and my favorite band
Day 4: Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not?
Yes, sometimes I do it because I feel like I need it, not because I’m sad or angry, only I need it
Day 5: What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
the feeling when my bf see my scars… is sad…
Day 6: What about it do you enjoy?
that relax me, and I like see the blood.
Day 7: list 10 activities that help you calm down.
1. listening to music
2. being with my bf
3. play guitar
4. play videogames
5 .sleep
6. take a shower
7. eat [bad habit]
8. writing
9. reading
10. drawing
Day 8: What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?
“although you hate yourself, I like you” [that said my ex]
Day 9: Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds? Discuss.
Yes, I did it for my diary.
Day 10: How do you feel about your scars?
I don’t hate it, but I don’t like it.
Day 11: Strangest place (school, park, etc) you’ve ever injured yourself?
in a park.
Day 12: Where do you keep your ‘tools’? (Your room, in a box, disposed of them?)
I ALWAYS have my cutter with me and I have few razors in my backpack.
Day 13: What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?
I don’t know…
Day 14: Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
my bf, he cut himself a long time ago, but he is recovered.
Day 15: Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?
I was in a social web, but I left it
Day 16: What advice would you give to someone about self harm?
don’t start, and don’t try it.
Day 17: Do you know anyone else who injures themselves?
yes
Day 18: Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
Dear Marii,
You’re more strong now, but you have to fight yet, be happy, and don’t worry, you will overcome it.
Day 19: List 5 reasons that recovery is worth it.
1. I can be happy
2. I can stop feeling guilty
3. I can be proud of me
4. my bf not will be sad for my fault
5. no more lies
Day 20: What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm.
it’s about a dream, I was in front of a mirror, and I started to cut my stomach a lot of times.
Day 21: Have you tried to stop in the past? What are you doing differently this time?
I tried, but now I’m not
Day 22: Where do you feel the most calm?
sleeping or when I’m with my bf
Day 23: What is your favorite inspirational quote?
if you can’t be happy, make others happy, and make them smile for you..
Day 24: What are some of your main triggers? Why?
Anger. when I got angry I cut myself no matters what.
Sad. I feel like all is my fault.
Day 25: Do you know any statistics about self harm?
no
Day 26: What is something that makes you the most happy?
my bf, my cats, my favorite band, the music, play the guitar, etc~
Day 27: Discuss any and all progress you have made.
I don’t have progress…
Day 28: What short-term goals do you have?
graduate high school
Day 29: Do you follow any self-harm blogs?
some
Day 30: Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to look back on.
Can I be a little weird, but I can be strong too for stop.
